when did u first taste marijuana,Lilly?
….why are u asking me these questions? Leave me alone…are u deaf or what?
Lilly..u don’t want to answer me,u don’t want to colaborate,but do u remember that u killed someone?
….huh!!!…go and fuck urself,Doc!!
After a period of time ,Lilly asked for Mr.Red to tell him,as she said, “a secret”. Doctor Red came imediately to see her and find what is she going to say..or maybe to confess the truth that only she knows it…
“I’m a psychologist..just a simple psychologist..Is this girl playing tricks on me again?never mind…this is my job …But unfortunately , I cannot see what’s inside her”
-Good morning,Lilly..
-They told me u won’t come…so here u are…
-Ur secret…
(She interrupted him )
-Come here… I will tell u something that..come on…why are u afraid?do u believe I can hurt u?
(The girl moved her lips so slowly..her voice had magic in her words just like a witch spell)
-I was pregnant…I lost my child..my little poor child… U know…I was too young..too innocent.. One day,a guy took advantage of me ..we were HIGH at that moment..but I never imagine that he could do such a thing!!!
- What do u mean in “we were HIGH”? did u take drugs?
Lilly was silent…
-Answer me!!!
-Well..that was my first day with marijuana
-Just marijuana?
-Yes…just marijuana
-U got pregnant…what happend with the child?
-At that time I had no money to raise him…and the best advice I got was to make abortion in a private hospital. When I got there…everything seemed to be like in old times: dingy courtains,spiders all over the walls.
-How old were u?
-About 17…
-U were alone all the time? Where were ur parents?
-My dad is a strager for me…I never saw him..just once… when he had a fight with my mom for not giving him enough money to buy his daily drugs…
-And ur mom?
-Excuse me..I don’t feel good..I have to go to the bathroom…(then she ran into the bathroom and stayed there a few min)
“Her nurse told me she feels bad every morning …”
-I’m back…(she gently stand on her chair)
-So…how about ur mom?
- …she ’s somewhere.. laying on the streets…when she heard the diagnostic(HIV),she lost completly her mind in that moment…
-That gynaecologist treated me like a was an animal..every touch of his hands hurt me..every assay of that abortion in me made me shed a tear..one by one… The pain was bigger than I expected…I lost my conscience…I woke up in a bed..around me was a nurse which told me to stand up urgently because another girl was waiting outside and she yell at me “We don’t have time to waste !”.
- For God’s sake!!!
(Lilly’s look suddenly changed…)
-The last words of that gynaecologist were : ” It’s not my business…It’s not me who is fucking all day . I’m doing my job…Honestly? I really don’t care about ur pain and ur tears right now…It can happen to anyone..”
and….
(Lilly started to cry like a kid and jumps into Mr. Red ’s arms)
-If you want to tell me more..I’m here..do not have fear..I can help u..
-All I want to say is …I took drugs in that night…marijuana again…I may say it was the only thing that made me feel good..and smile..even though I had no reason for that.I’ll never regret killing that piece of shit…
Report:
On June 7,Lilly Green committed suicide at 8.00 pm,in her bathroom.The main cause was a drug overdose and her psychalogical problems.On June 8,she had to be inprisoned 7 years for killing a person. At the autopsy it was discovered that she was pregnant.
